Though it gets more difficult with the passing of time to write these blogs, it would be
impossible to let this particular day go without comment. Today Darrel should have been turning the glorious age of 10, a milestone on so many levels in a young man's life, but neuroblastoma made that event a memory I'll never be able to be a part of with him. I am only left wondering how or what would be different about any given event if he was still here with us.
For example, over the past weekend, we took Kira and Lauren to see Shrek: Forever After down to the theatre down in Guelph. Like the Tranformers; Revenge of The Fallen, and the soon to be released Toy 3 and The Last Airbender, I'll have to see these movies because of Darrel. We spent alot of family time being immersed in the worlds these films created, I feel in an odd way obligated to see how the their stories continue to unfold. Whether I like
or dislike what I see on the 'Silver Screen', what will be missing the most will to the opinionated banter of Darrel all the way on the drive back to Fergus (but, then again, maybe he would have outgrown that by now?).
I've shared almost every Darrel story I have, some countless times, while details of others aren't as clear and fresh as they once were in my mind. The lack of time took my son away from us, and like the passage of sand through the hourglass, time is slowly making the recalling all those moments harder to do as well. This doesn't come as a surprise (as my hair is diappearing along with parts of my memory too), but it is most unwelcome none the less. While pictures and the videos have captured some of these moments, so much about the
substance of them is lost, and nothing can be done about that. What was...and what could or would have been is all that remains.
Remember the Smile<3. Remember the Laugh <3. Remember the Life < 3.
Happy Birthday Darrel
Love and Miss You Little Man